It's pretty strange staying around Naknek this time of years. I guess being out of college means a lot of changes that I never really though about. Like... that time of year when everyone else is taking off to Anchorage and other places? I'm staying here - holding down the fort (or at least peoples' dogs). And there's no end in sight. It's kind of a scary thing.... not scary in the sense of "Oh my god! The monster is gonna get me!" But more like, "What, really, have I gotten myself into?"
Sure I have plans for travel - going to the East Coast to visit family and Hawaii to visit a friend - but I know I'm coming back to Naknek afterward. And, sure, I have thoughts about what I'm going to do after this year... but nothing's definite. I mean, if I don't get into the grad school I'm looking at, I may end up staying another year here. Then I'd have to get a job. Yay. Not really. I guess I'm a bit afraid of change, a bit afraid of going out in the world, so I can't really fathom leaving here if my tentative plans don't work out. It's hard to move somewhere else to a completely different life. I could go somewhere that I know people, and I probably would if I did leave, but I guess we're in a recession (though you wouldn't know it by looking around here), so I can't expect to just move somewhere and find a job. I'd have to plan ahead.... not always one of my strong points.
I don't really know what I'm doing right now. I'm just a bit bored, so you get the benefit of my random thoughts. What else, what else? I guess I've kind of run out of steam for now, but I'm sure there will be a lot more entries like this. Lots of random. Maybe next time I'll promote a marvel called "dobok."
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